Some Words Are Best Left Unsaid?

Some thoughts I would like to express to 2 friends.

Hey Girl I know we have drifted a lot ever since last year. Though there were a few meet-up attempts, work recommendation etc... nothing did work out?

I still remember those days where we will go to each other for countless of problems, that I would go and visit you in Yishun if I am nearby.
Those days we have like impromptu meet ups and all.. I miss those days... I miss how we are the unseparatable best friends the one that knows me inside out, I don't consider knowing you that well anymore since I don't even know how you are really doing now.
Then,I remembered calling you a while back telling you about how lost I was and that I actually considered dropping out of school. You said you would come to see me after my school but you didn't...
IDK to be disappointed or not well like I always tell myself , " Its okay she has her friends and her friends have been there more than I do. Maybe Im not that important anymore".

I hinted. I tried. I failed. Now, I really don't know if I should be giving up. You wouldn't reply I know..
On your birthday I was still in YJC, I thought of surprising you with a little gift at your door step but ya I rmbed that you went for a chalet...

Time flies and situation change. I didn't expect our friendship to change.


A second thought to my bff.......f(x)
hey best friend :) I really don't know what to say.
I just have this thought that we aren't as close as we used to be anymore. We don't spazz about our common interest, we no longer call or hold long conversations like most of the time, we are just trying to sustain a conversation which somehow doesn't work out anymore.
I know I have neglected you a lot since holiday. All the empty promises and all the empty failed dates.
Some times I wish I have the capability to do everything I want to do too...
But Im just bad at keeping friendships aren't I?
Hais, no matter how many "I miss yous" I have said, or hints that I've dropped I hope you know that im sorry for whatever I have done. especially neglecting you..
I miss our Pool/Ice creams/ Mahjong/ Skating / FOOD FIRES/ Calls/Texts/ Walking the whole sahara Himalayans to your house. STRAWBEERRY CAKES HUSTLES....
I miss you so much I miss the memories so much.

If I could I would like to ask for my holiday back. I would have done so much more...