Hellos:)
I've been quite addicted to this song( Counting Stars -OneRepublic) recently... Hmm... maybe because too much has been on my mind:)
I'm so thankful to God as He once again showed me through the people around me; that problems are just small stones and pebbles that trips you once in a while through your journey in life.
A little analogy hahah.
I had a really boring Monday D:
Made weird mistakes at Subway and ended up spending more money than I initially wanted to just for lunch. Went to JW's house to chill and have my lunch before she departs for Paris:) what a lucky girl to be able to go to Paris again hehhe.
Hmm... my parent will be going overseas tomorrow for a meeting and poor me will be left with the housework for the next few days but it's all right I guess since I have nothing to do till then.
I have been loaded with quite a few problems in scouts as well as the people around me. Like Oh-Im-So-Tired-Of-Their-Ridiculously-Nonsensical-fake-assumptions.
But again.... It's where I have to up my tolerance and mentality to face the dark and judgemental society in 2 weeks AKA School.
Im not very excited about starting my course in TP somehow... a dying passion for it D: I thought of using the next 2 weeks to pamper myself with me! Maybe going around Singapore to do what I want to do alone, spending time at the bookstore indulging myself in the serenity(not that Singapore really has a place for that but oh well!) Just having a little lone time to filter my mind off the negativity that has been clouding around me for weeks.
( Its like putting myself in a Cocoon. My friend came up with this weird term hahah )
So.. Monday is Over!
The next few days I have...
Tues1/4- Collection of SGC from Peirce
Weds2/4- DC-Logs team meeting
Thurs3/4- IceSkating and NCRS day
Friday4/4- Probably Ice cream or Town Day for myself (KINOKUNIYA DAY?!?!?!)
Sat5/4- Stay at home Day since my mum will be back
Sun6/4- Scouts.
Monday, March 31, 2014
Sunday, March 30, 2014
Some Words Are Best Left Unsaid?
Some thoughts I would like to express to 2 friends.
Hey Girl I know we have drifted a lot ever since last year. Though there were a few meet-up attempts, work recommendation etc... nothing did work out?
I still remember those days where we will go to each other for countless of problems, that I would go and visit you in Yishun if I am nearby.
Those days we have like impromptu meet ups and all.. I miss those days... I miss how we are the unseparatable best friends the one that knows me inside out, I don't consider knowing you that well anymore since I don't even know how you are really doing now.
Then,I remembered calling you a while back telling you about how lost I was and that I actually considered dropping out of school. You said you would come to see me after my school but you didn't...
IDK to be disappointed or not well like I always tell myself , " Its okay she has her friends and her friends have been there more than I do. Maybe Im not that important anymore".
I hinted. I tried. I failed. Now, I really don't know if I should be giving up. You wouldn't reply I know..
On your birthday I was still in YJC, I thought of surprising you with a little gift at your door step but ya I rmbed that you went for a chalet...
Time flies and situation change. I didn't expect our friendship to change.
A second thought to my bff.......f(x)
hey best friend :) I really don't know what to say.
I just have this thought that we aren't as close as we used to be anymore. We don't spazz about our common interest, we no longer call or hold long conversations like most of the time, we are just trying to sustain a conversation which somehow doesn't work out anymore.
I know I have neglected you a lot since holiday. All the empty promises and all the empty failed dates.
Some times I wish I have the capability to do everything I want to do too...
But Im just bad at keeping friendships aren't I?
Hais, no matter how many "I miss yous" I have said, or hints that I've dropped I hope you know that im sorry for whatever I have done. especially neglecting you..
I miss our Pool/Ice creams/ Mahjong/ Skating / FOOD FIRES/ Calls/Texts/ Walking the whole sahara Himalayans to your house. STRAWBEERRY CAKES HUSTLES....
I miss you so much I miss the memories so much.
If I could I would like to ask for my holiday back. I would have done so much more...
Hey Girl I know we have drifted a lot ever since last year. Though there were a few meet-up attempts, work recommendation etc... nothing did work out?
I still remember those days where we will go to each other for countless of problems, that I would go and visit you in Yishun if I am nearby.
Those days we have like impromptu meet ups and all.. I miss those days... I miss how we are the unseparatable best friends the one that knows me inside out, I don't consider knowing you that well anymore since I don't even know how you are really doing now.
Then,I remembered calling you a while back telling you about how lost I was and that I actually considered dropping out of school. You said you would come to see me after my school but you didn't...
IDK to be disappointed or not well like I always tell myself , " Its okay she has her friends and her friends have been there more than I do. Maybe Im not that important anymore".
I hinted. I tried. I failed. Now, I really don't know if I should be giving up. You wouldn't reply I know..
On your birthday I was still in YJC, I thought of surprising you with a little gift at your door step but ya I rmbed that you went for a chalet...
Time flies and situation change. I didn't expect our friendship to change.
A second thought to my bff.......f(x)
hey best friend :) I really don't know what to say.
I just have this thought that we aren't as close as we used to be anymore. We don't spazz about our common interest, we no longer call or hold long conversations like most of the time, we are just trying to sustain a conversation which somehow doesn't work out anymore.
I know I have neglected you a lot since holiday. All the empty promises and all the empty failed dates.
Some times I wish I have the capability to do everything I want to do too...
But Im just bad at keeping friendships aren't I?
Hais, no matter how many "I miss yous" I have said, or hints that I've dropped I hope you know that im sorry for whatever I have done. especially neglecting you..
I miss our Pool/Ice creams/ Mahjong/ Skating / FOOD FIRES/ Calls/Texts/ Walking the whole sahara Himalayans to your house. STRAWBEERRY CAKES HUSTLES....
I miss you so much I miss the memories so much.
If I could I would like to ask for my holiday back. I would have done so much more...
30/March
2 More Days :)
Hello ! Here to update a little about my weekends:)
Saturday
Spent my afternoon having tea with KerXin at TCC:) Happy that she manage to get a place in SP Business Administration and not to be tortured in JC You go Girl!
Then shortly after that I went to join the scouts to celebrate Earth Hour at Marina Floating platform.
Personally I don't spazz about Andrew Garfield ( IDEK if I got his name right) and Emma Stone. So... it was really boring for me.
Ended the day with dinner and ice cream :)
Today, I went for YZPS Alumni Lunch at Chinatown with Esther, Oliver, MeiQi and CE.
It was good Chinese food but the lunch took like 3 hours!?!?! So came home late, full and tired. But I had a great day though ^^
Irresponsible bunch. Just wait till we work out a way to bring the discipline back up. I will not give in to anyone's attitude.
Hello ! Here to update a little about my weekends:)
Saturday
Spent my afternoon having tea with KerXin at TCC:) Happy that she manage to get a place in SP Business Administration and not to be tortured in JC You go Girl!
Then shortly after that I went to join the scouts to celebrate Earth Hour at Marina Floating platform.
Personally I don't spazz about Andrew Garfield ( IDEK if I got his name right) and Emma Stone. So... it was really boring for me.
Ended the day with dinner and ice cream :)
Today, I went for YZPS Alumni Lunch at Chinatown with Esther, Oliver, MeiQi and CE.
It was good Chinese food but the lunch took like 3 hours!?!?! So came home late, full and tired. But I had a great day though ^^
Irresponsible bunch. Just wait till we work out a way to bring the discipline back up. I will not give in to anyone's attitude.
Thursday, March 27, 2014
Last Decision... No regrets
Hey Guys! Life has been pretty crazy to me... because it spoilt me with choices(like xuan said... )
Hmmm I initially accepted RP because I thought the TP will never accept me again and well... I was so wrong! After I made my enrolment fee and all TP decided to accept me :/ TBH I was really confused. Should I accept TP? Or should I try to have a new life in RP.
Starting a new in a new school isn't easy :( now I really wonder how my cousins keep up with the change in schools from year to year because my aunt loves to change their school .-.
After a long talk with Jerrom and well those that are close to me, I realise that if I really don't want TP I would have just rejected it on the spot. But seems like I still bother to consider, which means TP has never been something I loathed with all my heart. Oh well, to choose between a recognisable diploma or a some what familiar environment...
Hais... my Final Final Decision is TP uh..
Another thing is that I feel really sad to leave YJ.
I have made really good friends there like my CTG 126, some ODAC girls...
I really cannot bear to leave the Peirceans, my CTG, and some really important people behind in YJ.
Hais I really don't know if I am ever ever going to make new , genuine friends in TP Since it is so filled with....
Nvm about that , Updates of today!
Went to YJ in the morning to complete my withdrawal:)
Then came home...
And head out again to TP to collect my enrolment package and complete the online enrolment form ;P
oh well I hope to finish doing all of that by tomorrow so that I wont miss the deadline.
I am so not excited for school to start.
For the next 2 weeks... I hope to take a really long break to clear my mind :) and also to be mentally stronger so that I will stand firmer on myself and not get irritated or swayed easily by others' opinions.
Hmmm I initially accepted RP because I thought the TP will never accept me again and well... I was so wrong! After I made my enrolment fee and all TP decided to accept me :/ TBH I was really confused. Should I accept TP? Or should I try to have a new life in RP.
Starting a new in a new school isn't easy :( now I really wonder how my cousins keep up with the change in schools from year to year because my aunt loves to change their school .-.
After a long talk with Jerrom and well those that are close to me, I realise that if I really don't want TP I would have just rejected it on the spot. But seems like I still bother to consider, which means TP has never been something I loathed with all my heart. Oh well, to choose between a recognisable diploma or a some what familiar environment...
Hais... my Final Final Decision is TP uh..
Another thing is that I feel really sad to leave YJ.
I have made really good friends there like my CTG 126, some ODAC girls...
I really cannot bear to leave the Peirceans, my CTG, and some really important people behind in YJ.
Hais I really don't know if I am ever ever going to make new , genuine friends in TP Since it is so filled with....
Nvm about that , Updates of today!
Went to YJ in the morning to complete my withdrawal:)
Then came home...
And head out again to TP to collect my enrolment package and complete the online enrolment form ;P
oh well I hope to finish doing all of that by tomorrow so that I wont miss the deadline.
I am so not excited for school to start.
For the next 2 weeks... I hope to take a really long break to clear my mind :) and also to be mentally stronger so that I will stand firmer on myself and not get irritated or swayed easily by others' opinions.
Friday, March 21, 2014
It Goes On :D
Heyy!
Yes i realised that i have not been updating at all... yes it is because i have been busy with my indecisiveness.
So Im sure most people have been getting weird news about me and my school choices... I shall clarify every singly thing here ( not like anyone reads this so ya is okay)
Last year before O levels, i have been successfully accepted to Temasek Poly Under HTM course through the DPA.
I was a happy kid like yay thats it! i got what i wanted!!
So i started my DPA program on 3rd or was it 4th Feb, for 2 weeks and i absolutely hated my time there. I begin to dislike TP because of the environment, i never feel like " its my school " kinda feel. Everything there seems really fake and 'Atas'. If you are not 'Atas' You're not part of TP.
So after going through countless of emotional nights I decided to just appeal to JC, where I will meet genuine people and buy some time for myself to re-think if I am suited for HTM.
Thanks to my "Average" O level result,I got accepted immediately to YJC.
TO BE HONEST, I love the people I meet in YJ. My CTG is full of AWESOME bunch of fun & unique individuals, I love my Subject Combination, I love the tutorials and lectures( most of the time) and the breaks spent with my CTG. I got accepted to ODAC( Outdoor Adventure Club) CCA as well! Life is exciting here but... through the past 1 month I have also realised that 'A' Level is not what I am ultimately going for and that the local university doesn't offer what I want. Not quite what I want.
Sooooooooooooooo, I am back to the Emo-Square1, where I feel so uncertain and blamed myself for not making right decisions, being impulsive and all..
But after talking to VP- Mr Hoe, my CT, Mrs Aw Yeong and of course my friends, I realised that "hey I should be going after what I want and not waste time in JC learning things that are irrelevant and stressing myself out so much with the DW, PW, and the far fetch- PROMOS"
Also that I dont have the confidence to pass Promos... hahh risk retaining.
After all of that, my final decision was to mass appeal; to SP, RP and ironically back to TP.
( ikr why did i bother to try Tp again when it SUCKS?)
I know that my heart is 50-50 for TP, was never at SP.... I accepted RP.
Then people will say....
" RP is called the WEST ITE WHY ?"
"You have good L1r4 & R5 WHY NOT STAY IN JC"
"TRY NP! ( err soorry they dont have what i want)"
"Dont Go RP LAH"
And the List goes on..........
HERE I WOULD LIKE TO CLARIFY,
RP isn't a West ITE , in fact NONE of the Polys are.
Different Poly have their own STRENGTH.
I believe that RP has its own strength, yes its different it doesnt have lectures and tutorials [ i had enough of those in JC TBH HAHA]
But it doesnt mean that its bad ;)
My final decision : 3 years in RP - To Make It.
And of course... To not let my mentor down =)
Yes i realised that i have not been updating at all... yes it is because i have been busy with my indecisiveness.
So Im sure most people have been getting weird news about me and my school choices... I shall clarify every singly thing here ( not like anyone reads this so ya is okay)
Last year before O levels, i have been successfully accepted to Temasek Poly Under HTM course through the DPA.
I was a happy kid like yay thats it! i got what i wanted!!
So i started my DPA program on 3rd or was it 4th Feb, for 2 weeks and i absolutely hated my time there. I begin to dislike TP because of the environment, i never feel like " its my school " kinda feel. Everything there seems really fake and 'Atas'. If you are not 'Atas' You're not part of TP.
So after going through countless of emotional nights I decided to just appeal to JC, where I will meet genuine people and buy some time for myself to re-think if I am suited for HTM.
Thanks to my "Average" O level result,I got accepted immediately to YJC.
TO BE HONEST, I love the people I meet in YJ. My CTG is full of AWESOME bunch of fun & unique individuals, I love my Subject Combination, I love the tutorials and lectures( most of the time) and the breaks spent with my CTG. I got accepted to ODAC( Outdoor Adventure Club) CCA as well! Life is exciting here but... through the past 1 month I have also realised that 'A' Level is not what I am ultimately going for and that the local university doesn't offer what I want. Not quite what I want.
Sooooooooooooooo, I am back to the Emo-Square1, where I feel so uncertain and blamed myself for not making right decisions, being impulsive and all..
But after talking to VP- Mr Hoe, my CT, Mrs Aw Yeong and of course my friends, I realised that "hey I should be going after what I want and not waste time in JC learning things that are irrelevant and stressing myself out so much with the DW, PW, and the far fetch- PROMOS"
Also that I dont have the confidence to pass Promos... hahh risk retaining.
After all of that, my final decision was to mass appeal; to SP, RP and ironically back to TP.
( ikr why did i bother to try Tp again when it SUCKS?)
I know that my heart is 50-50 for TP, was never at SP.... I accepted RP.
Then people will say....
" RP is called the WEST ITE WHY ?"
"You have good L1r4 & R5 WHY NOT STAY IN JC"
"TRY NP! ( err soorry they dont have what i want)"
"Dont Go RP LAH"
And the List goes on..........
HERE I WOULD LIKE TO CLARIFY,
RP isn't a West ITE , in fact NONE of the Polys are.
Different Poly have their own STRENGTH.
I believe that RP has its own strength, yes its different it doesnt have lectures and tutorials [ i had enough of those in JC TBH HAHA]
But it doesnt mean that its bad ;)
My final decision : 3 years in RP - To Make It.
And of course... To not let my mentor down =)
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